There is a mountain of regret on my shoulders
And a snake on guilt coiling on my chest
There is this wall between us
A wall of our egos and I don’t know what
A wall that we built over the years
Unconsciously
When you couldn’t show affection even you wanted to
And when I failed to care even though I wanted to
We are standing on the opposite sides of the wall
You on your end
And me on mine
Desperately waiting for the other to make a move
And shatter it
There are futile attempts to call each other
But the wall is so high
The voices are drowned in the bricks and stones
I know you want to reach out
I want that too
I know you want to break this wall
Once and for all
And run to me
I want that too
But I know you will never do it
You would never make the first move
It will have to be me
There is no other way
But I can’t do this anymore
I am tired of the games
The mountain of regret is crushing me
The snake of guilt is biting me
I know I need a hurricane of will power
And a truckload of patience
How do I swallow my ego?
How do I bend and give in?
I know all the answers
Love
That is all I need
But how I do I allow love to make its way to my soul
And soften my heart which is cold as a marble slab?
For it is just me who can do it
At the end of the day
I will have to find the will
Or else keep standing by the wall
Shouting out into the void