You have to let your feelings out. You have to vent them out and you must find a way. Open up to a soul friend. Scream yourself out in the middle of the day in your room, cry out, cry as much as you can, even if you start hiccuping but do it. Shout or yell, spread yourself out on the bed under the blanket and sob in your pillow. But do it. Write it out, in a blog or in a personal diary, keep a journal or write poems, draw it away.
But love, please don’t keep your feelings locked up inside. I beg you to release them. Keeping them bottled will just harden you and close your heart. The feelings will keep mounting and soon you will have a volcano burning up inside that won’t find a way out. That’s how demons are made. That’s how monsters from under the bed creep up in your chest. And that’s when you find yourself passing out from anxiety attacks, that’s when you get those unrelenting bouts of sadness. There is so much pent up pain and frustration inside you and it kills you slowly. It tortures your soul. And there is no way out. You can’t find a way to get it away from your system.
I beg you to have mercy on yourself. Don’t bottle up your emotions. Remember only the brave can truly show their feelings. Remember it’s not weak to cry once in a while to lighten your burden. It takes courage to heal yourself.
Please have compassion for yourself. Please don’t be hard on yourself. Please don’t let your soul suffer. Please let it out. Please come to terms with all your demons. Make peace with all your feelings and burn them with a smile. But love please do it.